p. 12

"Dextromethorphan HBr or DXM", which is

p. 13

commonly an ingredient of cough-syrup

Content

PP.

Introduction

1-3

Part I : Psychedelics

6-15

(Trips)

18-106

One

18

Two

19-23

Three

24-9

Four

30-46

Five

47-55

Six

56-62

Seven

63-73

Eight

74-76

Nine

77-8

Ten

79-84

Invisible Landscape

85-91

Eleven

92-6

Twelve

97-103

Thirteen

104-6

at first, "green lines of swirling light"

later, "Taffy-Clouds ... lava of zero gravity."

"my personality was split up – "me" had become "us" – "I" became "we.""

"with each successive trip, I began to be able to navigate ... other realms by "pulling" in a spot in the distance – some light or cloud-edge – by "staring" at it, drawing it in or moving toward it by never taking my "eyes" off of it."

"Everywhere I look I am seeing with peripheral vision. I can see perfectly, every detail, but I can’t stare directly at anything."

"Beyond the taffy-clouds I settled into the trip and I encountered the Golden Wall ... . It is a huge barrier of shimmering yellow light. I can bring the Wall into range by "staring" at one spot on its surface. As I come right up against it I can see minute detail – it is not smooth but bumpy and pitted and does not change."

"In the caverns of taffy; I have begun to notice tiny lights and shapes that seem to be knowing, aware ... things. ... They are brightly colored, sometimes striped blue and black, or yellow and red ... . They come circular or barrel shaped, amid tendrils of green plasma".

p. 22

"I was interacting with an invisible "person." I was befriended by someone who was merrily explaining about these green electric tornado-like vortices that were whirling in the

p. 23

distance. "If you enter one of these your ego will be put back together," the male voice explained."

p. 24

"Deep within the taffy chambers. <y companion ... shows me a churning flesh colored wheel. I can make out nodules on it ... . All at once I realize that this "wheel" is ... my emotional center! This is the Regulator – the place where emotions are sorted. This was revealed to me when I witnessed my emotions ... as a bizarre rollicking wheel of voices-attached-to-emotion ...

{In Kun.d.alini yoga, the cakra-s (‘wheels’) likewise regulate emotions.}

p. 25

-- but "I" couldn’t feel any emotion at all. As the emotions spiraled out they were accompanied by voices that were coming from an area of the brain {or rather, area of the akas`ik records} where every voice I’d ever heard is stored".

p. 26

"It had the appearance of ... a "face" like a splayed crab ... . It was alive, and yet it was made of "liquid metal" – a kind of organic/metallic blend. ... It probed me very nonchalantly. ...

p. 27

In later trips I encountered many of these Other. At first I called them "liquid robots," ... they were alive, organic ... . Later I named them the Crab Faced Other due to the converging ... tentacles that seemed to make up their "face.""

"there was a full second between each of my arrivals into reality. And each time, because I would move, my new view would be a foot or so away from my view the second prior. This was the "strobing" often reported on DXM (where everything around you is perceived as if a strobe light had been turned one)."

{Another variety of this principle is a strobing effect of scenes in otherworldly visions (obtained through the praesence of a person already connected with the divine worlds via mystic rituals), which I have often enough witnessed.}

p. 30

"There was a chord ringing out, like a big sounding barre chord on an electric guitar. I t was musical but it didn’t change. The chord just hung there droning. ...

{Kun.d.alini, who is (like a tornado) helical, is associated with "hearing music" ("K"), viz."internal music" (KR, p. 28).} "Hearing internal music" ("KS"; "SKA") is a symptom of Kun.d.alini’s awakening.}

I came over one of the Ego Vortices, orbiting it (it was circular, or like looking at a tornado from a side view). As I floated around it my emotions were being fed to me, instead of coming from me ...,

p. 31

I now "liked" it! Emotions were being spread across my psyche with no context, so that I was "feeling" them in a pure form. (This reminds me of the music analogy, in that music can create a longing for which the listener has no context ... . ...)

This, after my encounter with the Regulator [cf. pp. 24-5], had driven the realization home – "I" was independent of "my" emotions."

"this Hive Mind must be the Overmind described by Terence McKenna in The Archaic Revival, a living Super Mind made up of all of humanity – a place of the dead – forging itself into one mind."

{A notable type of instance of the "Hive Mind" (a term referring to a collective community of minds, similar to a bee-hive community) if the sort of community of souls residing together in the interior of stars, as described by, e.g., informants of Dolores Cannon.}

"these were another species of Other. They had tiny glowing "eyes" on the end of stalks, and bodies like swirled, multicolored plastic/plasma. I named them Plasma Flowers (they look plantlike – I once described them as "twisted bird cages" ...)."

"The other "I"s anticipate my question before I ask it, because they are privy to the thought as it arises in my consciousness – because they are me! It goes : "Yes, we are here, we are you!""

p. 38

"I’m flying over a scene ... . ...

p. 39

What it is[,] is a dream landscape. It’s a three-dimensional scene of every dream I’ve ever had. At this point I can remember/see every dream I’ve ever had. Now I’m drifting down into it. ... It’s like a ... warehouse. ... People, animals, archetypes, childhood monsters ... they’re all here."

"The idea that the brain is a sort of antenna that receives signals from the mind outside time/space has been raised by many mystics. Amit Goswami, PhD., tackles this idea in his book The Self-Aware Universe."

This is along the lines of Goswami’s Self-Aware Universe -- the brain is in the mind."

{That the mind is fundamental and the body (and physical world) derivative is characteristic of metaphysical systems from India, from the Upanis.ad-s onwards.}

"Problems arise in the dream to create hurdles and dead ends (the phone won’t dial, the car won’t start ...)".

{One very noticeable variety of this is the dream of false awakening wherein the room (bedroom wherein one hath dreamt of awaking) is dim and the electric-light switch is not availing to turn on the light (as is quite common in my own dreams).}

This is what the showdown with the self is."

p. 47

"There are people in tunnels. There is a lunar landscape of living thought (?) and there are men digging tunnels just below the surface. They can see out through small openings in

{Are these tunnels the inhabited dream-tunnels described Carlos Castan~eda in his Art of Dreaming, or the tunnels in astral sub-planes described by Robert Bruce is his Astral Dynamics?} {Are the tunnel-diggers similar to kobolds?}

p. 48

the thought/rock. ... They work tirelessly and chant ... . I can feel/hear their old accents. Then ... some man of old ... stresses the importance of ancestry."

p. 49

"I’m really dead. ... My relatives came out saying, "... Come with us!" There was a great sense of homecoming."

p. 50

"In a subsequent trip, it happened again. I found myself accelerating and I instinctively knew : I’ve died! ... Again I took it in stride : "So I’m dead. ..." It was the curve/tunnel and the waiting ancestors again."

p. 50

"the people at Daniel Pinchbeck’s Web site ...

p. 51

was all somehow a program. ... There is no free will – only the sense that there is.

I have yet to shake this sense of ALL-AS-PROGRAM."

{One’s life is divinely programmed as according to praedestination.}

p. 52

smell incense. There was a high seat of honor and I understood it was for me. ... Whereupon I found myself on this High Seat covered with velvet(?) and silver(?). ... Then one young man approach smiling and I understood ... a cosmic joke ... . The young man said : "This is the first enlightenment!" We both began to laugh hardily {heartily}. ... He was laughing through me, or our laughter had become One Laughing – so that my physical {dreaming} body uttered the high-pitched giggles that were his! ... After the laughing ... I saw the unmistakable shiny spot on the Hive wall. I popped though the opening and I was over a deep dark valley. Rising from the depths were "silver" candlestick-like objects with dishes at the top. On the dishes were lavender-colored cakes ... . {gtor-ma} ....

p. 53

I had the feeling that they were hallowed. ... I understood that they would never be moved or be used for anything."

{reserved host of eucharist}

p. 53

"I decided to read a book. It was Carlos Castan[~]eda’s The Active Side of Infinity. ...

p. 54

I saw the Golden Wall forming, and in it were flowing the text from the pages of the book! I could see life after line of text poring onto the Wall ... . As the text filed away, the Wall was hardening into the immovable, pitted, shimmering thing I had rested myself against before."

p. 54

"The Hive ... is ... "back alleys" and "low-rent districts" as well as new unlived-in "Many Mansions." ...

p. 55

the Dead are in the Hive Mind ... being carried aloft upon the shoulders of ... ancestors in a merry parade."

"green electric/plasma fluid spilled through fissures in cavelike walls ... . It was awareness flowing down into a collection pool, which seems to flow out again into openings leading deeper into "subterranean" depths."

"I floated in to see a face. "The face of God," it was explained. ...

{cf. the "Long Face" (makroprosopon) and the "Short Face" (mikroprosopon) of God in the Qabbalah}

This face was some kind of ancient mask. ... I believe that being shown the Face of God as a mask was to demonstrate that our collective or personal notions of God are whatever we put that mask on. The face is hollow".

p. 59

"There was a tunnel of greenish light made up of two spirals. The two spirals were opposed. ... It was

p. 60

the Secret. ... . ... the dual spirals ... swirled."

"Anne Shulgin in the book PiHKAL, told of what has been called "The Dissociative Spiral"".

I instantly thought of the Princeton Noonesphere {sic! Noo-sphaira http://noosphere.princeton.edu/} project (where scientists are trying to confirm, with the use of computers, that there is a single mind at work over the planet – a supermind ...)."